Forgive Me

Riding to work this morning (That's right I am momentarily back on the bike making the 10 mile trek to work each day--it's harder than it sounds) I listened to a tune from the CD I happened to write an earlier blog entry. The song is "Forgive Me" and it just hit a nerve this morning.

I've been really making an attempt to be more regular with my time with God over the last month and yet this last week out of fatigue and other busyness God has been placed on the backburner or at least my time with Him. Stinks. I really have missed the our time together. Although, I've tried to continue to pray consistently.

Let me first give credit where credit is do:

Words and music by Manwell Reyes, Pablo Villatoro, Blanca Reyes, Andy Anderson, Sky Michaels
© 2006 Dayspring Music, LLC (BMI) / Voive Music Publishing/ Justin Boller Publishing Designee (ASCAP)

Father, I’m going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain’t getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne

I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win
I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning

I’m calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart’s been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home

The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can’t take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home

Chorus:
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left, Lord please

I’ve come to terms that I’m burning both sides of the rope
And I’m hoping that self-control would kick in before I’m choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I’ll never make it I’m not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn’t do it I would lose it there’s no point to the fight
And I’m writing this song, for the people who don’t belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that’s filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It’s annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn’t pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there’s no crying
I’m dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul

Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There’s go to be more
Than this life I know
But still I’m here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through

I need to simply continue to be reminded there is comfort and peace in Him. In the midst of all struggles, He is there and has been there for me.