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Tuesday, June 09, 2026

Untrustworthy - by Bonnie Kristian

UNTRUSTWORTHY - The Knowledge Crisis Breaking Our Brains, Polluting Our Politics, and Corrupting Christian Community by Bonnie Kristian, 2022. 

I took time reading this book, from October 2022 to finishing it March 31, 2026. As I read, I simply wanted to take some time summarizing the thoughts. Most of the information below is direct quotes and thoughts of Bonnie Kristan. Please support her by purchasing this book


What I think this book is about - we don’t know what is true, what is knowable, what is trustworthy. How do we know what we are hearing is the truth? Specifically, the News Media reports and comments on what people say and how do we interpret their words. With all this talk of "Fake news" what is news really supposed to be? The premise of this book seems to be - "How do we know what truth is really?" 

We are in a epistemic crisis or a crisis of epistemology.  (Epistemology or the theory of knowledge or defining knowledge, what it is, how we acquire it and justify it; distinguishing between belief or opinion). What is real truth to us. 

One high summary thought: We can't separate journalism from opinion. 

The author, Bonnie Kristian, is a journalist, and starts out in the introduction talking about why she wrote the book, a product of 4 situations in her life – 
  1. A friend of theirs was looking for a house in the city to be near family prior to the 2020 election (Trump/Biden) and because Biden won they didn’t trust their decision to move anymore. They believed the fear rhetoric of a government meant life in the city would be chaos and better to stay put and live on a farm.
  2. An experience at church in which the church denomination was considering gay pastors and what followed to her surprise was 2 different ideologies - one focused at looking at this issue based upon scripture and the other based upon people's experience. She was amazed at how people, within the church, approached an issue differently.
  3. An older couple during the COVID pandemic started to watch a lot of Cable news leading them to think differently about life; the choice of a particular news station somewhat changing their entire life approach. 
  4. A friend shared a post about good info on human trafficking that contained a hashtag promoting QAnon, but she had no idea she was sharing that ideology. In a way her actions were innocent, but in the sharing of information she might inadvertently cause another to stumble. 
Note: interesting quote about people that hold to conspiracy theories written by GK Chesterton, an English writer who died in 1936. He remarked that "there is no use discussing (or arguing) with conspirators because their minds moves quicker and is not delayed by thinking of things with good judgment." Respond to this by not fact-checking but by taking a walk and going to church. Remember life and "the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38-39). 

Chapter 1 - NAMING THE CRISIS

We are in a "knowledge crisis." Epistemology -- "how we think and understand understanding itself." If truth exists, how do we access it rightly? What do we know? How do we know it? Is the world as we perceive it? As information has increased, truth is assumed and therefore an ignorance of epistemology has developed. What is the result? 

Introduction to Epistemology

We live and function as if true knowledge can be gained and shared. Yet what is true is open for debate. Is it knowledge or opinion? In theology, we often can't agree on how trust about God can be found.  

The epistemic crisis is seen in satire news that is more than just humor, but often fooling people. Both political parties are involved - on the right it was the cry of “fake news" echoed by President Trump to describe not only made up stories but embarrassing or antagonistic stories to him. The mantra turned to doubt anything you don't like.  Meanwhile on the left, the idea is what you know is dependent on your own experience and can't be concluded by those not involved directly. Thus, there is no impartial space for dialogue. Instead of saying “I think….” it is “speaking as an X” (e.g. speaking as a Black Woman). A good presentation visually of non-truth can lead to many believing it is truth. 

Proverbs warns of those who seek out information that pleases us (17:24), dismiss wisdom (12:15), lack common sense (10:21), quick to quarrel (20:2), and happy to hear ourselves talk (18:2). 

Political Implications of Our Crisis

We don’t want to analyze learning as we are acquiring info. Yet we don’t often know how learning is defined. 

Proverbs echoes the cry of the fool that wants info that is pleasing to self and so dismisses wisdom (Prov. 12:15), lack common sense (Prov. 7:7), quick to quarrel (Prov. 20:3), and happy to hear self talk (Prov. 18:2). 

Decline of trust in news. But was is replacing it? Anything trustworthy?

Epistemic crisis: politics, social lives, and faith; a split not just in what we value or want, but in who we trust, how we come to know things, and what we believe we know — what we believe exists, is true, has happened and is happening.

Gallup poll change from 1973 to 2020 'Trust in'— Church 65% in 1973 to 42% in 2020; Congress 42% to 13%; Newspapers 39% to 25%; TV news 46% to 18%; Presidency 52% to 39%. No change in Supreme Court. What is truth or false is irrelevant when pursuing power for oneself or against one’s enemies. 

Chapter 2 - MEDIA

Starts with a story of an error she made in reporting a story about Jerry Falwell/Liberty university. She took a quote out of its context and made a different interpretation. She corrected it within 5 minutes of publishing and apologized to Liberty's VP of communication. Major news outlets tend to issue corrections to news stories or retractions. But minor news outlets do not. 

What's Wrong with the News? 
Trust in the media is on a long downward trend across American society. Christians, in general, view the media negatively.

Uniformly Left, Left, Left
People think the news media is intentionally being inaccurate (8 in 10 Americans). 1 in 10 full-time journalists identify as Republicans (2014). It is clear the media leans to the left. Lies are often through errors of omission or emphasis. 2020 poll said 66% of people's top criticism of media is its political bias. 

Profit and Entertainment
The press is a business - audience and advertisers. We like to be entertained, to be thrilled. We like the other guys to be as bad as we think they are. The entertainment dynamic is more customizable as there is more than just 3 TV networks reporting news. This may not mean lies, but it does mean curating the truth. Some news stories bring in greater traffic. Journalist from Spectator World (news website emphasizing writers with no bias) saw uptick in paid newsletter subscribers when writing about issues of gender and sexuality. Yet, news outlets will state they don't bend coverage for profit. 

Speeding Past Blind Spots
Reporters can have deadlines. Some have longer deadlines, but anyone can turn to known sources (that are responsive). And so journalists need more time to do work. Blind spots also create bias. One such blind spot now is religion as religiosity declines in America. Journalists are becoming less familiar with info Christians could once assume was common knowledge. 

The Objectivity Debate
Early 20th century objectivity was not the norm. But then the "Fairness Doctrine" from 1949 to 1987 when broadcast licenses were issued contingent on outlet's willingness to discuss controversial issues and contrasting viewpoints, not just one-sided opinions. Objectivity became the norm and journalists sought to try to follow the truth wherever it led. 

Major news outlets tend to issue corrections to news stories or retractions. Some online news outlets don't issue corrections because truth is not their goal. The discussion follows whether reporters are only to be a detective, collecting information (i.e. straight news reporting) or are reporters also to direct people to how things should be (activism) -- aka opinion writing, which the author does, in gathering info from news sites as to what happened and then offering an opinion on what it means and what we should do about it. Thus, this is what is occurring often, as events occur, like the mass shooting in Atlanta in 2021 where the murderer confessed he was trying to get rid of sexual temptation, instead the shooting was labeled as a hate crime against Asians. It seems that pure objectivity cannot be the goal or expectation and we should expect people's personal opinions to be included as long as they are stated as such. Reporters are humans, with limited time and so they choose which stories to write or follow leads on. Reporters should tell their audience what they think as this reporter did.  

Fake News
News made to look real; news that is true but maybe not telling whole truth; news that we don’t like. Falsehood is spread faster than truth. Calling truth fake makes it harder to determine what is truth. 

Social Media
Breeds falsehoods. We have an intense desire to know something. Scanning and reading stories fast result in concentration and contemplation casualties. 
Social media:
1. Encourages distraction and uncritical consumption especially by friends that share. We trust first rather than question friends. 
2. We forget that algorithms determine our feeds and what we see. It runs on emotion and fuels rage. Trained to get likes. 
3. A friend’s friends’ friend stories get seen and transferred faster. 
4. More chance of clinging to error than admitting error.  
In Bible, teachers have greater responsibility. Be silent first rather than speak. 

Faithful Factual Fair - If our desire is to love God and serve Him alone then can we create/consume traditional/social media content? Yes - but there is a epistemic (knowledge) crisis. Language is power. Few are taught and trained to understand/handle language. But some are not innocent and use it to their advantage - for power, fame, agenda and profit. And now anyone can play this part on our newsfeed. And so language is a skill to cultivate.

Chapter 3 - MOB

Living in China and seeing a woman with hanging sandwich board around her and finding out she was doing this out of public shaming for a theft. Alarmed but realize today shaming is now online.

Cancel Culture
First example - firing of publicist Justine Sacco. She had 200 followers on Twitter and headed to Africa and she tweeted in 2013 about racial inequality but the tweet was interpreted as racist and by the time she landed in the US, she was soon fired (though later rehired several years later) but not after being shamed for words she said rather innocently.

Defining Cancellation - "an attack on someone’s employment or reputation based upon an action alleged to be disgraceful and disqualifying." #MeTo movement refers to a crime - groping. Making a comment on Twitter is not a crime. This isn’t about simple disagreement or name calling but calling for you to be fired or de-platformed. Social censure is common in society. But now you can’t cause someone to simply leave town because of poor speech or action because the internet is everywhere and people are no longer only localized, but cancelled everywhere.

Critique and Accountability- Cancellation is replacing criticism with punishment. Accountability is a process with the person; cancellation is punishment of the person. In accountability one has the opportunity still to be right.
The Pitfalls of Public Shaming - there is a fear some have that their comments might result in them being cancelled. Survey - 2 out of 3 self-censor their political views out of fear of losing their job or career opportunity. With left leaning media right wing panic has emerged.

The Overton Window - nothing wrong with drawing a boundary of opinion (e.g find out kindergarten teacher is KKK) but problem when boundary is too narrow. The Overton window is the range of ideas the public is willing to consider and accept. There is a whole world, but people can only see part of it. This is the window. Overton windows says societies have limited ideas they deem legitimate, not right but reasonable. In totalitarian state, it will be a small window. Free-speech being protected means large window. The window can move but not at a fast rate that it stifles debate and research.

No Way Home - Guilt says you made a bad decision; shame says you are a bad person. In the Bible, there are examples of honor – shame, innocence and guilt. Originally we started with honor – shame that had a focus on restoration eventually in the person. And then we gave way to innocence – guilt in the enlightenment. As individual rights became a greater focus. Now we have shifted back to honor – shame but without the honor, and without any means, or process to ever restore the person.

Christ's Command of Forgiveness - Christians have a high calling for forgiving others of their sin, to the tune of 70×7. why? Because God has forgiven us of our sins. So, when we are hurt by someone, we have a high view of showing forgiveness towards that person, because of what God has done towards us. In the digital world we often live in, we have opportunities to respond to people and their situation‘s (though we don’t have any direct relationship), but actually I have no place to rebuke a person or their situation, because there really is no way for there to be any restoration or reconciliation. And even if a friend posts something that we disagree with, we really need to pull them off in private, and speak to them about that situation. So that it can hopefully result in restoration.

Unanswered Questions - Some say, our biggest problem in society is vindictiveness. We don’t have a good mechanism in life to restore people and it’s not even clear that we want to restore them. And we love stories about this. 1 in 4 Americans has a relative they do not speak with. We only forgive people when we don’t think they’ve done something really sinful. I’m (Bonnie the author) not seeing solutions to this in our marketplace. We must keep the vision of Christ and his vision alive. We need to be careful to not completely assimilate with the world, and what it thinks.

Chapter 4 - SCHEMES

QAnon started around 2017 claiming Hillary Clinton would be arrested, saying then it happened but never verified. Polling gives the idea 5% of population is aware of Q’anon and 15% or more are friendly to the content.

Trust the Plan
Basic QAnon has 2 parts - (1) There is a hidden cabal (secret group plotting or scheming) in government, the media or other powerful group. This cabal is guilty of child sex trafficking, cannibalism, Satan-worshiping human sacrifice, world domination. Through a great awakening, it has been revealed to the public by Q, a high ranking official (a sort of John the Baptist), whose makes drops or prophecies (their Scripture), and when these don’t come true, then the cabal has interfered. Q even drops Bible scripture. (2) The second part is hope, and Donald Trump is their Jesus Messiah working to defeat the cabal. And cabal members like Hillary Clinton are to be executed, then after Trump didn't get re-elected, Q posts stopped. Yet adherents are encouraged to stay involved, work your way up political lines.
...or some other plan QAnon ideas live on in conspiracists claims. These ideas are not unoriginal: 1990s rumors about silencing childhood vaccinations similar to COVID-19 vaccinations. The idea that China is using COVID as bioweapon, child sex trafficking is cabal originated, immigrants voting illegally to steal elections. All of this affects our epistemic (knowledge and its acquisition) crisis.
Conspiracies, Conspiracy theories, and Conspiracism People believe in these because they do happen and there are many examples in our recent history (e.g. Watergate, CIA's operation chaos).

Conspiracy theorizing is a sort of detective work. Facts previously withheld from official reports are amassed and woven into a series of events. But the new conspiracism is different. Research is not guaranteed rather "A lot of people are saying..." and suddenly there is conspiracy without much of a failure.

This runs on fandoms (enthusiastic fan of something) and memes (an image, video, piece of text, etc., typically humorous in nature, that is copied and spread rapidly by internet users, often with slight variations). This theorizing gives in to people's anxieties. And then connects dots.

It just all makes so much sense - Our brains like intelligible patterns and explanations. Apophenia - the human predilection to detect pattern and significance in random, meaningless information. And another reason conspiracism "just make sense" is people like to be right.

People like community - QAnon supporters often lonely and need community. If opposition comes it is while we are sitting in the home section of a sporting event with all of our fellow fans. Belonging is stronger than facts. Only the people huddled together truly know. Once admitted no one wants to leave the people who know.

People like to help - By coming together we think we are the ones who will bring to justice evildoers who are guilty of blasphemy, murder, and rape and participate in the salvation of the world.

Conspiracism in the Church
Christians and conspiracism are linked. There is no getting around it. People of faith know there are forces of good and forces of evil at work in the world and so they are susceptible to conspiracism. Kristian reached out to 3 pastors for their thoughts and from those interviews she concluded these three themes:

Theology - In her childhood, the 70s, there were many conspiracy revelations. "The Late Great Planet Earth" by Lindsey was written, taking current events and connecting them to scriptural passages, most notably Revelation. His readers concluded Christ's return was happening in the 80s. This idea that Christians should see a link between news headlines and scripture continues and mutates into a vulnerability for conspiracism. Our confidence should remain "in Christ," living in love hopefully and faithfully. Yet Christians are emboldened in this conspiracism and pastors are hesitant to speak out against it. Read scripture as scripture not as a decoder ring.

Politics - Sometimes politics is a consuming concern, and conspiracism is tolerated/embraced as a tool for political victory. We form tribes on politics and political ideology and are more concerned with the affairs of this earth than with the Kingdom of God. We need to keep politics in its proper place among our priorities.

Authority - Pastors have lost much of their authority as "arbiters of truth." Questioning authority is very American. Hebrews 13:17, 2 Cor 10:8, 2 Cor 13:10 and I Thess. 2:6-7 has these authors imploring us in respecting our authorities. We have so many voices of influence today, but we need to learn to submit to spiritual authority.

Three Steps against Conspiracism
When we find it in loved ones or ourselves.

Don't Argue - It accomplishes nothing. Arguing stifles conversation and instead we need to be more focused on the workings of ordinary life. Conversation instead takes times and trust and vulnerability. Listen to understand, not to refute. Focus on the friendship.

Look at the Fruit - Look at the fruit. A bad tree bears bad fruit. Are you more kind, more patient, more forgiving or more angry, paranoid and resentful? Is there patience for differences? People still need family and should not be cut off from family because of what they believe. A MI pastor separated from his church because the members were too caught up in QAnon and conspiracies.

Don't Seek False Security - Bonnie comments that it is hard to hear things without arguing when what is stated is nonsense. She is a libertarian. That government is off base is not a new idea. But hard to say all that makes sense is answered with conspiracy theory. But it gives false security to the idea that getting rid of bad people makes all bad go away. On the contrary, evil happens. It is a con artist giving us false conceptions of where history is going. We are to regard God as holy. It places our focus some place else.

Chapter 5 - SKEPTICISM

Scenario: Mayor of NY in June 2020 allowing thousands to gather for protests of George Floyd death but not allowing religious services of more than 10 people; basically, one is important, the other not - and so how do we process our leaders giving us different applications from the same rule they expect us to follow.

The Death of Expertise
Experts or professionals such as lawyers, doctors, ministers, plumbers, electricians are all questioned now more than ever. Commercials claim secret diets or cures making out that they know better than doctors/professionals or maybe the experts are hiding something. With our access to information now - everyone thinks they are an expert or they know better.

The Necessity of Trust - Everyday we practice trust - driving over a bridge is trusting engineers have designed it well and maintenance workers are maintaining it; eating at a restaurant is trusting farmers have grown food in a healthy manner and staff has prepared food that is uncontaminated- same can be said when one will fly a plane, take dog to a vet, board a bus.

Democratized Knowledge, Public Hubris - Democratized is make something (information) accessible to everyone. In our world, in which we often are scanning through posts on our phone, experts are expected to say things in brief. And whoever says it well can masquerade as an expert. We are staring more at the information rather than who is saying it. Also, as mistakes are made in public by leaders it reinforces that the average person knows as good as anyone on a matter. And once it is questioned you can find a trove of people online that agree with you or "like" what you have said (2 Timothy 4:3).

Expert Failure
Experts can fail. But it is rarely deliberate and often it is exposed by other experts. Associations are built to safeguard expert findings. And yet this still effects expertise.

Personal Hypocrisy - Rules for thee but not for me fuel conspiracism like when a political figure in COVID 2020 said no travel and then hopped on a plane to see relatives.

Noble Lies - This is a lie a leader might state in order to achieve something greater in their eyes. The lie is deemed necessary to achieve the outcome. Example - At start of COVID, leaders stated masks should not be worn by the public, but this was due to low supply that doctors needed, then it shifted to masks should be worn by everyone.

Politicized Judgment - Seemingly allowing large gathering protests (in the middle of COVID) outdoors while forbidding them indoors was a problem that called into question the experts announcing them.

Professional Relationships - There is a thirst in social media platforms to belong to the 'in' groups or 'out' groups depending on the issue. And how we accept people's research is often based upon how popular they are seen to be.

Unrealistic Expectations - The public has a sense that experts don't deliver what they promise, but Bonnie's contention is they do. They historically have made our lives easier with their inventions. It is not people that change science, but the task of science is to question itself to achieve the best outcome.

Onward to Virtue
We can't go backwards to the way it was. Public innocence about expertise is gone for good. We all must learn attitudes of humility and respect towards one another, habits of listening and speaking in good faith, and an eagerness to apologize graciously when we are wrong.

The Path for Nonexperts - Nonexperts start with acknowledging there is much we don't know and will not learn through googling - so we give due honor (Romans 13:7 - "Render to all what is due them") to those who have worked hard to learn their specialty (I Timothy 5:17 - honor those who work hard at their calling). Don't be a fool and despise wisdom and instruction (Prov. 1:7), assume your own intuition is correct (12:15) and scorn prudent advice (23:9). Allow experts to be wrong on occasion. And we should accept correction (12:1). Anti-intellectualism is the greatest temptation of the political right; scientism is the greatest temptation of the political left. Bertrand Russell stated (1) when experts agree, opposite opinion cannot be held to be certain; (2) if not agreed, then no opinion can be certain; (3) if no grounds for sufficient agreement, then we should suspend judgment.

The Path for Experts - Experts need to sell themselves better and make their opinion more palpable to nonexperts, not insisting what is right. Prov. 26:12 says, "Do you see a person wise in their own eyes? There is more hope for a fool than for them." The expert needs to be careful not to love the place of honor (Matt. 23:6). Experts need to admit their errors. A democracy (self-governed) actually encourages mistakes and experts need not get bent out of shape (through shaming or condescension) over their way not meriting desired outcomes.

Chapter 6 - EMOTIONS

Taught early on in life not to trust emotions, but rather to trust in God's word. Feelings are not facts. 

Hooked on a Feeling
Conservatives often thought they cared about facts while liberals were emotional. Yet emotionalism surfaced on the 'right.' After Trump lost the election in 2020, feelings and desires toward Trump winning reigned with the 'right' without much scrutiny. Leaders at rally's told people to 'trust their heart.' What the courts/law (facts) says does not matter. And then the mob behavior on social sites takes over. 

Feeling and Knowing
Emotions and feelings - do Christian’s need to suppress these? No. Feelings are needed. 

The Elephant and the Rider - Plato posits reason was made by creator god and demigods did poor work with our physical bodies resulting in emotions that tempt us to evil. The idea being, it is fine to feel but to know anything you need reason. Moral psychologist Jonathan Haidt made 'the elephant and rider' image to describe the interplay of emotion and reason. The rider sits on the back of the elephant and holds the reins, and with those reins decides where the elephant will go, turn, or stop. This works as long as the elephant doesn’t have any desires, reactions, emotions or intuitions; we want to think that it’s the elephant that gets us out of control; and that we are fighting with our unconscious, our id. But the elephant isn’t stupid or a hindrance to careful thinking. Science says when we suffered damage to the elephant part of the brain or the ventromedial prefrontal cortex, we actually make poor decisions or struggle to decide at all. Suppressing emotions is not the same as surrendering them and submitting them to Christ (James 4:7). 

Redeemed Emotion - In Paul talking about the divided self in Romans 7 he laments that he does not do what he wants to do because of succumbing to sin. And his deliverance is Christ. Man thinks he can conquer his passions but Paul says only Christ can. The elephant turns against himself by being tempted to sin. Our feelings are still valid. The issue is not succumbing to sin as not all emotions lead to sin. Emotions aren’t the enemy. The enemy is not loving God with our whole hearts. 

Feeling Convinced - Emotions are a useful gift from God and can be a valuable tool of persuasion. It is  speaking to the heart. Belonging is a feeling. It is true through belonging and positive experiences of community people can embrace preposterous and baseless ideas. The problem is those belonging feelings distract people from noticing lies, lack of evidence, or invalid logical leaps. But, emotion can help us move towards Micah 6:8 living. In political circles -- rage, fear and resentment reign preoccupied with being wronged, will be, who has and how they are to be punished. Conspiracism often predicts future wrongs; we love revelations of wrongdoings so we can share these seemingly truths. 

Feelings Come and Feelings Go - "Feelings are an important part of us that God created -- united with our reason, made subject to redemption -- and wants us to use to his good ends." But feelings may mislead, with reason unable to overcome. We need to check our feelings against the standard of Scripture, and yet in the context of community - at Church, within a community. 

Chapter 7 - EXPERIENCE

Katie Herzog, a cisgender & lesbian wrote an article in 2017 for a local paper in Seattle on de-transitioning (people who transition to a different gender and then transitioned back) and immediately received backlash and labeled as a transphobe by the masses though transgenders themselves did not attack her.

The Identity Assumption
The argument goes like this: If you don't have a given identity or lived experience (it has happened to you) then your understanding of related issues is fundamentally limited. Thus, with a different identity you are unable to comprehend or communicate truth, thus adding to the epistemic crisis. 

Identitarian Deference (ID) - Coined by commentator Matt Bruenig in 2013, "the idea that privileged individuals should defer to the opinions and views of oppressed individuals especially on topics (race, gender, sexuality religion, nationality, etc.), relevant to those individuals' oppression." But there is a challenge in identifying oppressed individuals. Overall, this shifts power to the oppressed and pressures people to defer to any experience of the person with the identity, without question. Refusing to defer is itself oppression. Deferring to someone because of who they are rather than because of their expertise, evidence, or reasoning. 

ID in the Wild - The argument is identity determines everything, setting up a wall against questions or being questioned. ID has supplanted persuasion and the wisdom of expertise - "speaking as an X" is speaking from a privileged position perspective. 

A Middle Way?
Christianity is an identity that we are "children of God through faith;" we are all similar and we are no longer separated by race, status, sex (Gal. 3:26-28). "We need a middle way that preserves free debate, makes constructive use of our identities and personal experiences in conversation, and pushes back on epistemic crisis, with a ministry of reconciliation (2 Cor. 5:18). 

Preserving Free Debate - Jonathan Rauch in 1993 book Kindly Inquisitors says regarding knowledge discovery - 1. No one gets the final say; 2. No one has personal authority. ID says the opposite. ID tries to make irrelevant certain people’s comments. But knowledge can come from anyone and everyone. 

Speaking Humbly as an X - Our experiences as men and women should help add to conversations and not end the conversations thinking our roles make us the only one's able to answer dilemma's are situations. It is the idea that we need one another and one another's perspectives. Just as we have different spiritual gifts that allow us to see a new angle of God's truth, so also are backgrounds, be in black or white, male or female. 

A Ministry of Epistemic Reconciliation - Our differences of identity and experience are not barriers but rather compliments. We do not have separate epistemologies. We are reconciled to God and sharing the message of reconciliation (2 Cor. 5:16-19). 

Chapter 8 - A PRACTICAL EPISTEMOLOGY

Author (Bonnie) begins each morning with this prayer by philosopher Thomas Aquinas while writing the book. Models humility and love of truth. It is a prayer, but it is also words expressing a commitment to truth and the person she wants to be.

An Epistemology of One's Own
The last 40 years has seen a dramatic increase in the amount of information available, but we have made no effort to equip ourselves to handle that shift or increase. There is no end in sight. It will not calm down and be more manageable. Freddie deBoer says, "The problem isn't there are liars....the problem is people believe them." We need to understand what we've believed as untrue, why it made sense to us and where we went wrong. We must keep polishing the mirror (I Cor. 13:12) - habitually - so as to see clearly.

Stay Practical (or Not) - Fake Barn country - it looks like a barn and you drive by thinking it is barn, but looking more closely, it is not a barn, just a façade of a barn. How do you know what is true and what is not.

Definitions
    Truth is that which is consistent with reality -- what we find in reality via sensory or empirical experience, abstract reasoning, testimony of others, or divine revelation.
    Knowledge is justified true belief; it requires a knower. Accepting a statement (belief) based on some evidence (justification) that it accords with reality (is true). The key here is evidence, like the fake barn was the evidence it wasn't true. Opinions are beliefs but they may or may not be true or justified.
    Fact is verified, true information, and is external to the person. Facts go in books; knowledge in minds.

A Commonsense Humility
Getting knowledge is not always easy. We mistake opinions for knowledge and anecdotes for data that is to treat personal stories or individual experiences as if they were solid, scientific evidence. We need to cultivate humility, recognizing our true place in relation to others, truth and God. Right now we say "Know the Lord" but one day when God's kingdom is realized and we are in His presence, we will know God. But right now, we know in part and can know some things.

Objective Truth Exists, but Humans Aren't Objective - Reporters should be accurate and transparent, not aim for objectivity because people are not objective. Where we live, our culture, impacts our reading of the Bible. Truth is influenced by our perspective.

Truth is Knowable, but That Doesn't Mean You Know It - Every claim we make should be subject to others’ review and debate. Christian cartoon, showing a classroom and a graph of history with the statement - this is where our movement came along, and finally got the Bible right. I may not be exactly right about my beliefs. Is it possible that I am one of a handful of Christians that across the continuum of history got everything right? I hope I have everything right. We can trust our reasoning, observations, memory but we are still fallible. Endless debate or free debate is a problem. I’m confident that the Christian sorry is true though it may not be established public knowledge in our pluralistic world. 

Your Perspective Colors Your Understanding, but You Can Still Understand - Even as we understand, it is a challenge to communicate well. We are called to understand and pursue what is real. But we may still struggle to communicate ideas into words and into ideas, but we always need to be open to this process. We must develop our virtues, to train our emotions so we can feel as we ought.

Epistemic Virtue
Your very character and the kind of person you are here is at stake. Developing these virtues though is not a formula. Small decisions accumulate to build a characteristically trustworthy person. This is not optional for the Christian. We are to "not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of our mind (Romans 12:3)." Thus, we have a duty to forge these virtues into ourselves.

Studiousness - To seek knowledge and it rightly; a happy medium between opposing vices. Asks why she should know and whether knowledge will be applied. Is teachable and willing to share, "not quarrelsome, but able to teach (2 Tim. 2:24)." Plays by the rules of free debate. Recognizes when other people's understanding exceeds her own. Has discipline, pursues stories, but not everything, understands her limits and understands others have different perspectives which affects their reasoning.

Intellectual Honesty - This is how we respond to the truth we find. This person when they are wrong, admits it and is always on the lookout as to how my own self-interest (personal well-being) might be distorting my own thinking. Is belief well-justified or do I want it to be true? He wants generosity, accepts apologies, is gracious, courageous, and will defend his understanding of truth.

Wisdom - Follow knowledge; in contrast to folly, life is marked by deep and abiding meaningfulness. She resists taking offense, thinks through decisions, and foresee trouble. Has humility, restraint, sees her own weaknesses, and knows the extent of her knowledge. We can foster wisdom but also ask God for it (James 1:5).

An Epistemology of Love - We work to know people as they are, following it progressively, wherever that may lead. Respect and enjoyment go together by way of exploring and exposition. Bringing together truth, knowledge, and understanding.

A Hermeneutic of Obedience - Anabaptists. Obedience to understanding of scripture comes with it a risk of persecution. We gain understanding of Scripture when we are prepared to obey it. We will struggle to understand if we are unwilling to bend our lives to its authority. 

Epistemology needs a plan of habit. 

Chapter 9 - A BUILDING PLAN

Mentions a Netflix special by Bo Barnham who remarks in it, "boredom is a crime; anything and everything all of the time." You don't know how to want something else.

Why We Need Habits
Lots of email; reading and doing posts, and endless scrolling. We built the framework of studiousness, intellectual honesty, and wisdom virtues and now we need to build the habits. Sanctification doesn't simply happen by information transfer. Truth must be practiced. Habits formed is how we give God access to steer our reins. The word "attention" includes tend as in take care of whatever and give it thought or tension which is stretching ourselves and enter a relationship. Give it your attention. 

Take An Inventory
Observe - what am I obsessed with, like can I have a normal conversation without looking at my phone. Is my default the phone or internet? I let texted conversations distract me from my work, to the point it breaks up the flow of my thoughts. Am I reading too much that doesn't require a response? Can I do things in silence or must I have something going at all times? Read with introspection. Study. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful.

The Habits We Need
Deciding which habits should change and then implement.

Devices and Desires - Isaiah 44:16-20 process of idolatry - chop down a tree, use part for cooking, carve part into a statue, and worship part that is made. "Is not the thing in my right hand a lie?" Our devices are made so that we use them more. Through algorithms we are trained to use things more even when it's emotionally negative. We gravitate to content we know is bad. First habit is taking sabbath. Lot out of sites. Give your brain a rest. Turn your phone off for an hour. Second is scripture before phone, tablet, laptop, or television. Do not give media the honor of launching your thoughts for the day. Lastly, eschew distraction. Turn off notifications. Uninstall social media and email apps. Control your attention toward your apps.

Space and Subscriptions - Arrange your space for virtue. Don't make TV the center of attention in your home. Find ways to clear out things in your home that ask little of you. Put your phone and tablet spaces other than your bedroom. Place your phone out of your sightline. We are weaker than we think when it comes to our screens. Create subscriptions for news and cut all television news from your life, as these sources jerk us from story to story, from one emotion to the next. Support transparent, careful journalism. Only read outlets that issue corrections.

Social Media Use - Take important conversations offline. Great for announcements but that's it. Don't mix personal with political or any sort of controversy. Move that to other spaces and not on social media as it will dampen the content I have come her for. It is a worry-making machine so avoid useless worries. CS Lewis said, "I doubt it is the duty of any private person to fix his mind on ills which he cannot help." Only log on for a specific purpose not for grazing. Only log on for a specific time. Avoid random scrolling. It is not to fill every moment of boredom. Do not argue. Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.

News Consumption - Avoid passive consumption and limit rapid consumption. Approach news with a purpose. Limit aimlessly trawling. Waiting a day or two on a major event will improve the quality and our delay will change exactly nothing on how that event unfolds. Choose to know only a few stories well. Hard to follow a little bit of everything all the time.

Strengthen the Rider - Read good books including fiction and especially old books. Have challenging conversations. Read good journalism. Abide by free debate, applying no final say and no personal authority.

Notice the Elephant - keeping to bedtime, exercise, leisure, get productive like doing home improvement. Be careful about responding too quickly to a story that moves me emotionally. 

Better Things - By building these better habits and so better spaces in our lives for better things it will help us become "as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves" (Matt. 10:16) in building the walls through which epistemic virtues illuminate. But the central focus is worship in God's word and among His people, the church. It is here our mind is renewed (Romans 12:3) and transformed. But there is no foolproof rubric for us to always tell truth from lies.

Resources
Her first book A Flexible Faith: Rethinking What It Means to Follow Jesus Today includes resources on how good it is to be in church today. Also, Alan Noble's Disruptive Witness, James K.A. Smith's You Are What You Love, Nicholas Carr's The Shallows and Jeffrey Bilbro's Reading the Times: A Literary and Theological Inquiry into the News, Justin Early's The Common Rule and Andy Crouch's The Tech-Wise Family, and the Questions Concerning Theology from L.M. Sacasas.

Chapter 10 - A BREATH

I Peter is deeply concerned with truth, belief, knowledge, hope, holiness, love, and the virtuous life. "Be alert and sober minded" (5:8), be reasonable and respectful (3:15), reject "all malice (ill will) and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind" (2:1); love those who wrong us and those who are wrong about us (3:8-16; 4:8). "As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do...[And] now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for each other, love one another deeply, from the heart" (I Pet. 1:14-15, 22).

A Better Way
There is a temptation to argue with those that we are trying to convince, especially those we fear we are losing to a false reality. Recommend abstaining from argument with strangers and those you don't know or see randomly on social networks, but instead remind people of the alternative and that there is something outside the confusion or delusion.

Giving Air - Offer a breath to those we know only (family, friendships, and church people). "Be sympathetic, love one another, be compassionate and humble" (I Peter 3:8). Stay clear of contentious topics or those topics that each thinks the other must be mistaken. Talk about the mundane. Welcome sincere questions if they come. "Do not repay evil for evil" (I Peter 3:19). Strengthen the relationship. In our churches, we should model caring for one another despite our differences. Pair grace for confusion in our communities with a commitment to the truth.

Ask for Help - Benjamin Franklin in a need to win someone over, rather than doing his enemy a favor, asked his enemy to do a favor for him. "He that has one done you a kindness will be more ready to do you another, that he whom you yourself have obliged." This gives that person an investment in my well-being. Also, seek their help of something in my life that needs understanding, such as my own pursuit of intellectual virtue. Be prepared though to learn about the log in your own eye (Matt. 7:3-5). Accept people's advice just as you expect them to accept yours.

To Each His Task - There is no perfect method for bringing people out of their own epistemic crisis. "Keep the relationship going" is the most common recommendation. But we want a quick fix instead. "It's a spiritual work that has to be done." And it may not be me that sees the change. "The Lord has assigned each to his task. I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow" (I Cor. 2:5-6). We won't win arguments, but the Spirit will still be on the move.

Build What is Good
Perpetual repair is our prognosis, but for our children we need to help them build responsibly. The church is pivotal in this as it is always building and it is where we build community. Don't let society train us. But also be sincere in love and truth (I Peter 1:22). Respond to people when we see their loneliness and the disaffection media consumption brings. To respond in love is to build. America has a knowledge crisis and this includes the church. Build what is good.


Conclusions: The adage "there is more there than meets the eye" is a sentiment we need to follow. We need to take the time to consider the source of information we are reading and hearing. We need to think about the content. We need to be careful about the emotions that are getting stirred up by the words. Focus on caring for people versus arguing the point. "Be sympathetic, love one another, be compassionate and humble" (I Peter 3:8). Keep in communication with people. The Spirit does the work ultimately though.



Wednesday, May 21, 2025

Christianity Today - March/April 2025

Here are a few articles I enjoyed (I notice articles often have 2 different titles - the one online and the one for the print issue. Below the print issue is in quotes and then the hyperlink title.)

Faithful Remnants or Growth is Good, Survival is Too - Sophia Lee - very informative article on the situation of preaching the gospel in Japan, one of the most unreached and small attendance of Christians in churches places in the world. 81% of churches have fewer than 50 attendees. 75% of pastors above age 60. Very people attending their seminaries. Nerima Church of God is making a difference and starting to see growth in young children attending. Muzuno Akiko pastored a church for 50 years in small mountainous community. 

"Justin Brierley Does the Unbelievable" or Justin Brierley Goes from Unbelievable to Re-Enchanting - Madeleine Darvies - good article on a apologetics guy that rose up in London at a time when many were leaving the faith. Engaged with people well and has a podcast. "Meanwhile, on Sundays Brierley can be found at the suburban United Reformed Church (URC) congregation led for almost 20 years by his wife, Lucy, who was already exploring a call to ordination when they met at Oxford." Desire to speak of renewal of the Christian faith. 

"Invasion Theology" - Andy Olsen - article about weeds and their mention in the Bible, but more specifically the weed Kudzu. History of this weed or vine and how it was promised to help farmers. 

"The Crux of Creation" or Easter is God's Story, Not Ours - Andrew Torrance - God's Story - contrasting the belief that (1) God's primary motive in creating the world and sending Jesus was out of his love for humanity and by extension, God's story is about us and our salvation rather than the truth that (2) God's love, glory, and eternal purposes take center stage, inviting us to find our true meaning and joy in Christ. -- God defines history, creation and we join Him in His story. "For from Him and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be the glory forever. Amen. - Romans 11:36" This article contrasts ideas of "Centered on Us" versus "Centered on God" - looking at different ideas in life and how we might define them. I read this on the plane ride to Denver on my way to Oklahoma City on 4/19. The next morning for Easter service, the song, "The Love of God" was sung in church. That song seemed to have a focus on that central idea of God's love. 

Church Kitchens Get Chopped - Daniel Silliman - Church kitchens are not the thing anymore as churches are being designed without them. Women have entered the work force and so nobody to man them. 

"A Certain Faith" or Borrowing Faith When Doubt Creeps In - Stefani McDade - Uncertainty has marked the lives of God’s people for millennia.  “The Great De-churching,” with approximately 40 million former churchgoers no longer attending. “Past experiences with a religious institution” and “the hypocrisy of religious people” 2 common reasons. Deconstructing now an option for people. My husband seems to have a gift of faith. As Dietrich Bonhoeffer wrote, "God has willed that we should seek and find his living Word in the witness of a brother, in the mouth of a man. Therefore, the Christian needs another Christian who speaks God’s Word to him. He needs him again and again when he becomes uncertain and discouraged, for by himself he cannot help himself."

"A House Deconstructed" or Faith Torn Down to the Studs - Jen Pollock Michel - Son struggled with faith. Went online and found conversations which helped question it more. Deconstruction - once-standard commitments and convictions are taken down to the studs, like Michael Gungor, Joshua Harris, and Audrey Assad. In Toronto, where we raised our children. It was a rare environment, one Nathan credits for his courage to pursue truth wherever it led. At the end of every sermon, time was made—in a large sanctuary, crowded with hundreds of people—for an open question-and-answer period.

Tuesday, April 22, 2025

Christianity Today - September/November 2024

Here are a few articles from this issue I enjoyed. 

A Vision for Repair by Bonnie Kristian - I have really enjoyed reading Bonnie's book Untrustworthy. This article contrasts 'replace' and 'repair', and the consumerist tendency today is more on replacement. Online there are many videos about repair and yet she knows the repair is not as easy as the presentation shows - edits, retakes, mastering the repair first. An over-focus on replace can even lead to problems in relationships. People quickly punt rather than try to mend. And it isn't enough to talk about repair, which is common for right wing politics when political agendas have often been deconstructed. Even repair in the church is amiss. Thoughts: (1) Repair doesn't mean to stop moving forward. Redesigning may be necessary; (2) It isn't rejecting the new, but making a focus on restoration. It is: repair over replacement, resolve over resignation, conservation over chaos, staying over leaving, and building up over tearing down; (3) repair is sometimes not practical and we need to replace like in a marriage when one spouse is unwilling to resolve or change; (4) Sometimes you must repair parts and replace other parts. Remember God redeems, revives, recapitulates, and reconciles us -- 2 Cor. 5:16–21

Making Space for Yearners (Not None, not Done) by Daniel Taylor - People who live between fully committed and disbelief. Some say these are doubters, people taking a hard stance on them often to get over it and just believe. The mind vacillates (Ja 1:8 - double-minded) and choosing God and faith in God involves will. Committed yearners state faith though may have doubts. Uncommitted struggle committing despite belief in God. Mark 9 presents a man begging Jesus to heal his Son - “If you can” and Jesus heals as the father states, “Help me with my unbelief.” The rich young ruler was uncommitted prizing his wealth over following Christ. Modern example - poet Anne Sexton. She rowed toward God with God as the goal but never arriving. She attempted suicide often and then had success at age 45. We need to let people search. Listen to yearners sympathetically. Thomas in the Bible stayed committed even as he had doubts; Peter to a degree as well.  

The 'New Christian' Era (Some of Christianity’s Biggest Skeptics Are Becoming Vocal Converts) by Nathan Guy - In the 70s, with the Jesus Revolution, people accused of having subjective faith but now the shift is to intellectual Christian’s tethered more to cognitive knowledge. Consider A.N. Wilson, classmate of Richard Dawkins writing a book in 1991 against religion but in 2009 penned an article “Why I believe again?” What changed - working with those in poverty and seeing human qualities. Also Tom Holland, an avowed atheist but in 2016 wrote how he was wrong about Christianity. But not yet a believer in Jesus as Son of God. Also New Atheist thinker Ayaan Hirsi Ali in 2023 states she is now a Christian. Early part of 20th century saw a contradiction between suffering and pain and all powerful and loving God. Gave rise to secular humanism. 60s and 70s focused on individualism, sexual freedom and social liberation and then nihilism (no laws or institutions) of Seinfeld. Then Christian philosophers emerged. New focus on human dignity (all people have value and deserve respect). John Locke said an objective standard must be present. Humans rights are asserted but the ‘why’ behind them is often left out. 

Called to Kenya's Chinatowns - Reaching Chinese people in Kenya by Sophia Lee. And the story of a young man that eventually got commissioned to minister to the Chinese people. Some working long hours - 6am to 10pm 7 days a week and have no need for friends. Kenyans and Chinese don’t necessarily get along. President in China building tollways globally and then trying to collect tolls but no one uses them in Africa because they can't afford them.

Then an article called “Pastors Heart, Lawyers Mind” about a lawyer turned pastor in the United Methodist church that opposed Lesbian bishops and eventually helped start a new denomination in 2022 called the Global Methodist Church. He used humor and good sense to help persuade others. “There has to be a way Christians can disagree and separate” he said. Like Abraham and Lot, Paul and Barnabas.

Calling’s Dark Side (Calling is more than your job) by Steven Zhou about understanding one's calling; work is to a Christian discerning God’s plan for our lives. Career and calling may not be the same thing. And maybe calling is not on a grand scale but can be seen in smaller areas like a calling to write found in writing columns for the monthly church newsletter. And this discernment of calling and/or fulfilling it is not a condition for godliness. Callings may get sidetracked for a time but don’t give up on them. 

That Europe May Know (What it takes to plant churches in Europe) by Ken Chitwood about Global Church Network meeting in Zurich to add 100,000 pastors in the next 10 years. Assemblies of God, Pentecostal and Church of God, Foursquare, Nazarene and Wesleyan Church. But new churches often result in people leaving after a while. Need to do the hard work of developing relationships. We need to try meeting people where they are at, like starting a discussion in a pub; it is creating a space where people feel welcome. 

Tuesday, December 17, 2024

Surrender - Bono

My friend Bruce gave me this book for Christmas 2022. It is now December 2024 and well, I have finally finished. Here are a few thoughts chapter by chapter.

Chapter 1 - Lights of Home - Bono, lying in bed after having maybe a heart attack in 2017 and thinking about his dad who passed away. He mentions that before each performance that U2 prays together. He read Psalm 32 Tuesday on his deathbed. His dad didn’t wanna hear it.

Chapter 2 - Out of Control - Bono now takes himself back to his younger days, back to 1978 (born 1960) and mentions the song Out of Control written after he read Crime and Punishment and the acknowledgement we have nothing to say about our birth or death occurring.

Chapter 3 - Iris (Hold Me Close) - launches more into his growing up years with his mom, Iris, who passed when he was 14. And she didn’t get spoken of much after this by 3 males in the house (Da (Dad), brother and himself). She had a stroke. Died quickly after that. He writes songs to her but also maybe to his wife Ali (married since 1982). Mentions songs are prayers.

Chapter 4 - Cedarwood Road - was more about growing up and experiences with his father after his mom died. His dad singing voice and him learning to do things on his own. 

Chapter 5 - Stories for Boys - was more on his youth and how he got the name Bono, a childhood friend that is still friends today, Guggi, gave him the name and gives other people’s names as well. Mentions another friend with effiminate characteristics. Talks about his faith a little more and says everytime someone asks him to ask Jesus in his heart he does. He learned about faith from Guggi as well.

Chapter 6 - Song for Someone - was the band coming together. David Evans the Edge. Paul Hewson is Bono and talks about him meeting Ali which I think will be his wife. And then how Adam Clayton and Larry Mullen are a part of it as well.

Chapter 7 - I Will Follow - Started out by mentioning a painting in their house about Road to Emmaus. The year is about 1978 and they are starting rehearsals and trying to get signed to a record deal that includes getting a van for the band that they are having a hard time getting. He talks about food and eating and everyone’s eating habits. They found a place to practice near where his mom is buried. The song I will Follow is a suicide note about a kid wanting to find his mother even if she is already in the grave. Mentions the prodigal son story and the focus on the father not simply waiting but out looking for his son. Mentions the Shalom group he and his wife got interested in. Christian radicals. Practiced 1st Century Christian life. Mentions being in a coffee shop with NYT writer and being approached by rough guys that said they had mercy and didn’t attack his father.

Chapter 8 - 11 O'Clock Tick Tock - was a little all over place as I started it. Had a focus on Punk a little as the band was now starting to figure out a place to practice. Starts to mention them playing gigs and the response and the crowds, though not large. And trying to get a record deal, but people passing on them. And then they got a deal with Island records. They found a manger and agreed to go forward at 20% each which they still thought was a lot of money, but they need a manager. Paul McGuiness.

Chapter 9 - Invisible - was next up getting a producer and landing on Steve Lillywhite who is close to their age. It is 1980 but also moving into 1983. Chapter starts to talk about the concert experiences and people listening to them and the connecting they make with the audience, feeling privileged that people spend money. U2 is more of a punk band at this point. It moves into 1981 and their first US tour which is like 50+ shows and quick summary of experiences. Mentioned festivals in Europe and coming back home. Talk of manager and experiences with him on the road. Long chapter.

Chapter 10 - October. It starts off with Bono talking about his anger management issues and one time throwing Larry’s drum kit off the stage. Him and the Edge can get angry and duke it out at times. Mentions songs with a hymn like quality like New Year’s Day, Where Streets have no name and I still haven’t found what I’m looking for. Talks about revival taking place in Dublin, a movement of Holy Spirit. He states he is a follower of Jesus Christ, but doesn’t like people preaching, thinking it should be done without words. Band was actually thinking of quitting as a band to pursue their faith in God and preach the Gospel. Started with the Edge then Bono. Larry was not happy but the manager told them they shouldn’t be breaking their contract. 

Chapter 11 - Two Hearts Beat as One - back in Ireland. Got married 8/31/82 (he 22, her 21). Adam Clayton best man - hoped it would make them closer. They honeymooned in Jamaica. Elaborate. Different from what they knew. He said they would always find home with each other. And then started writing songs for War.

Chapter 12 - Sunday, Bloody, Sunday - mentions the life of Larry growing up and loving drums and mom allowing him to grow his hair out which was unusual. Song about a day in 1972 in Ireland when a peaceful protest went tense and 14 people were killed. The song begins with pounding of drums. The politics though began to follow them. They cried this is not a rebel song - sung to continue the ill treatment of innocence. Some agreed and some did not. Problems erupted at home and they began to be confronted. Had John Hume (Irish politician) and David Trimble (northern Irish minister) onstage at same time.

Chapter 13Bad - Brian Eno - island thought it crazy to have him work with U2. Met Bob Dylan backstage and he invited Bono for a game of chess. It’s the first time they felt like artists recording the Unforgettable Fire at Slane Castle.

Chapter 14 - Bullet the Blue Sky - visiting El Salvador and human rights issues with wife Ali. Went to the Pentagon in 2008 to talk of these atrocities.

Chapter 15 - Where the Streets Have No Name - 1985, Bono and Ali in Ajibar, Ethiopian famine (also the reason for LiveAid). Knock on Christian’s for not helping poor enough and being too focused on their own well-being. $250M resulted from LiveAid and other spin-offs. When he saw Live Aid footage all he could see was his mullet.

Chapter 16 - With or Without You - The relationship of Ali and Bono. They have a border collie call Joe. Ali not only lived with me, but with the poets I was reading. The making of the Joshua tree was a very exciting time or Bono could hardly sleep. Remembering Greg, Carol, who became a personal manager on the unforgettable fire tour in 1984. It was part of the group that was making this new album when he was killed on a motorcycle. The song one tree hill paid home edge to the time with Greg. He learned that he and Allie could be themselves around each other. She could never be known. There was some thing unfathomable about her. With or without you captured some of her dark beauty and our bittersweet duality.

Chapter 17 - Desire - The band moved to Los Angeles in1988. It has been a good place for them starting from a 600 person show to 80,000 later. he met Quincy Jones by way of his car driver. And then All got pregnant. He was partly afraid, and partly thinking his dad is alive, would laugh in his face. But All loved every part of Bono.

Chapter 18 - Who’s Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses - now we were looking for a Music we had yet to hear. The due date  if their child was May 13, 1989. It was May 9 and she was in delivery and he felt helpless but he did hear the heartbeat of his baby slowing. Jordan Joy, Iris still water Hewson born on May 10th, also Bono’s birthday, a girl. Named after the river Jordan, the river of the gospel song, where the sweet chariot swings, low, and a band of angels are coming forward to carry me home. Her sister Eve was born a couple of years later. He then talks about his children and growing up with them at times, not being around. Being honest with them. Enjoying the discovery of them and who they are. He is also very thankful that he doesn’t ever have to worry about money. He’s thankful to the fans for that. Good chapter.  

Chapter 19 - Until the End of the World - it is 2022. He’s with Edge on a train from Poland to Ukraine. The war with Russia has begun and they are there to meet with President Zelenskyy of Ukraine who he met previously when he was an actor and comedian. This chapter takes a momentary detour to mention also meeting with Gorbachev and Chancellor Merkel.

Chapter 20 - One -  10/3/1990 arriving in Berlin to record Achtung Baby as the Berlin Wall has come down. They were recording in the historic place, and yet there’s songs we’re not yet crafted in the way they would like. The single man Edge asked out the waitress. He talks about some recurring dreams he has of his da. The song until the end of the world is about a conversation between Jesus and Judas. Love is blind. This came about from the edge and playing his guitar to the story of his marriage ending leaving three girls. He loves the mother, but can no longer make it work for each other. The song one talked about how people are more the same than they are different. There is a line about a son, telling his religious father he was gay. A line about a lover who has been discovered, finding sex outside of sexless marriage, and how she got there. We are one, but we’re not the same. Yet years later in 2008 while playing this song at the end of the show, he looks at his bandmates and wonders if we are all the same.

21 - The Fly - The fly was a song about a man’s libido, and how insignificant he is up against that libido. Spoke of David Bowie, England’s Elvis. Mentions meeting President Clinton before he was president in Chicago. Talk of Zoo TV and reality TV coming alive due to MTV show and also the experience of arena's and preferring that to an open field where sound of fans goes into the air. One thing Hitler did was set a stage with the Olympics of getting voices to reverberate.

Chapter 22 - Even Better than the Real Thing - Zoo TV Tour in Sydney, Australia for 2 nights and shooting footage there as well. Adam Clayton partied the night before and didn't show up the next day for the shoot and also would not be at the 1st night of the concert. This hadn't happened since one time in 1978. He was a wild person at times. His guitar tech subbed for him that evening.

Chapter 23 - Mysterious Ways - Song was about the gender of God, as Bono muses that God could be feminine. And the chapter retells the story of women in general and all of their mysterious ways and beauty. Mentions super models and particularly Naomi Campbell and her impact as a woman of color. Also mentions their managers and the impact of many women in their organization as a band.

Chapter 24 - Stuck in a Moment - Refers to suicide and specifically Michael Hutchence, lead singer of INXS, who Bono was friends with. They mused together in their friendship one time about Kurt Cobain. Michael took his life in 1997 after wondering why Kurt did in 1994 thinking Kurt just needed to move by the moment (stuck). Interesting line about the song he wrote "Hold Me, Thrill me, Kiss Me, Kill me" how if you don't die on a cross at 33, people start asking for their money back. [This is my favorite chapter.]

25 - Wake Up Dead Man - Describes how U2 is a band that is constantly evolving instead of duplicating the same sound from the previous albums. Pop album was supposed to an exploration album in staying current with popular music, but it didn't. No top 10 hits. Also came to realize that just putting out anything would now get extreme praise, but still concerned they lost momentum. Wake Up Dead Man could be addressed to Jesus in the tomb or it could be my bandmates ode to Me (Bono).

26 - The Showman - Being an artist is about showmanship. Also about deception and he reminisced about meeting and singing with Frank Sinatra and how he knew Sinatra by his songs. Also, how Pavarotti wanted to do a song with them and incessantly asked and then what ended up, "Miss Sarajevo" was Bono felt one of the best songs as the focus was also not on him. The year is 1996.

27 - Pride (In the Name of Love) - March, 1999 walked into the oval office singing the cry of antipoverty walking in a T-shirt and black combat pants. Bono trying to convince the president to have the richest countries pay for the debts of the forest. Buy those riches countries just writing off the debt. It could all start by the turn of the century January 1, 2000. Jubilee 2000 would take care of all of this as jubilee in the Bible meant a year of the Lord‘s favor. Jewish tradition every seventh cycle of seven years you must write off peoples debts and release them from their bondage. Bono also had opportunity to speak to the Pope about it and by the end of the chapter Clinton had any fact forgiven the debt which meant probably 50 million children would be able to have food.

28 - Beautiful Day - This chapter is about his da and his relationship with, their friendship and his dad coming to see a show in 1985 for the first time in Houston, then announcing he has cancer in 1995. Bono made an interesting remark about the seasons of marriage - friendship, passion, co-parent, raising kids - and then hopefully back to being a friend.

29 - Crumbs from your Table - This song title is in reference to how hard Bono has to work to get money out of the government, and that money is simply crumbs for the table to them, almost like their petty cash even though it represents millions of dollars.

30 - Miracle Drug - This chapter continues Bono's theme of activism and now moves into 2001 when George Bush is now president. He talks about it being different and harder to get into the White House to speak to someone. His agenda is AIDS and makes the comment that the republican's and even church people don't give much credence to it like other problems. He gets in with John O'Neill and has good conversations and then he is gone. He is concerned about the people that are suffering, like those in Botswana where it is said to have impacted 30% of the population. Mentions someone named Anne who is at a hospital in Lilongwe, Malawi, a hospital where people are just waiting to die and yet she is there, with a spunky and positive attitude. He finally makes strides with Condoleezza Rice and ends up at a news conference of sort in which the government will give $5 Billion in relief money and he announces this with Bush, though his left wing people think he's a traitor for siding with Bush, concerned about the other motivations people have. Also brings up Rupert Murdoch and the beginning of Fox News, a non-liberal based news service that would be the beginning also of the ascension of Donald Trump. Again, tough words towards the right. They go on tour and Agnes, a Ugandan nurse who tested positive for AIDS comes along and speaks. Then in 2003, the President, George W. Bush, at the State of Union of address commits $15 billion over the next 5 years (PEPFAR) to fight AIDS. Bono gets impatient with Bush when it doesn't happen quickly, but eventually the amount will grow to $100 billion.

31 - Vertigo - 2004. Was in Dublin with friend and actor Cillian Murphy. He made a comment that their lyrics are not about real love and real life since One Tree Hill. But I told him I have to write where I am at now and in Vertigo I'm writing about us, to you and me. Then chapter switched to conversation with Steve Jobs and and designing a new iPod and U2 representing the iPod; they hitched a ticket on the Apple ride to infinity and beyond. AIDS Activism continued in 2006 with (RED). It started in 2002 and continued with the goal to end poverty. Later hospitalized in 2020 for back issues when he received a hand written note from Jobs and his wife Laurene. Then Jobs passed away in 2011.

32 - Ordinary Love - Remember 2014 Oscars playing this song, part of Mandela movie. Mandela locked up in a cell for 27 years found greatness through reading. Result of working a limestone quarry cost him tear glands and the ability to cry. Summer of 2001 fashion and music converged in Barcelona - "Frock 'n' Roll." 2005 London Trafalgar Square speech by Mandela. "Poverty is man-made." Talk of working on anti-poverty campaigns. There is wealthy in Africa despite the portrayal globally its poor. Africans have more mobile phones. Nollywood in Nigeria makes more movies. The problem with COVID relief and vaccinations was often the rich countries bought up the supplies. He prays with bishop Desmond tutu and wonders how he has time to pray as to two remarks prayers of passage way for everything in life. He speaks to Kader Asmal of the African National Congress in 1998 about the slow progress in South Africa of getting out of poverty with an example of not achieving a goal of South Africa administration of providing running water to everyone within 300 feet and the irony of seeing sprinklers going off in lush areas of the city.

33 - City of Blinding Lights - It is January 2009 and Obama is becoming the next president. Bono has grand words to say of Obama. The chapter song title is a song Obama used when announcing his presidency. He sees America as a great idea of a country, a song yet to be finished. He does not have kind words to say of outgoing George W. Bush as Obama will rewrite history now. Obama's turn as president will be soulful. Mentions Trump who begins his campaign of lies. Bono tried to engage but Trump will never admit when he's wrong, but he isn't the problem, populism is the problem. Obama's fight for healthcare was for the pursuit of "Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of happiness." Obama added $52 billion to Bush's $18 billion for his AIDS work, continuing his predecessor's legacy. Obama's were invited friends. Talks of wine and how he is allergic.

34 - Get Out of Your Own Way - getting picked up at airport by Paul McCartney as he presented him MTV legends award. Speaks of music business and problem of signing music label contracts and giving up rights to music. Better to take less royalties in the beginning. Money breaks up bands. Look out for each other was their philosophy including having everyone get equal songwriting credits. His friendship with Bill and Melanie Gates and Warren Buffett family and singing at Susie Buffets funeral. 

35 - Every Breaking Wave - Jackson, one of two dogs, is dying. I hate goodbyes. Paul McGuiness, manager in 2013 departs. Recollects Seamus Heaney poem "Scaffolding" and line "all comes down when the job's done." Read William Blake results in Songs of Innocence (2014) and Songs of Experience (2017). New manager is Guy Oseary till 2022. Talks of Love Songs.

36 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - Impact of Jimmy Iovine (white man) recording black gospel group New Voices of Freedom in Harlem. Recording "I Still Haven't Found..." song and will play at Madison Square Garden with the Harlem group. Trying to figure out in 1987 how life is about constant refreshment - dying and being reborn. Black church music feels more honest. This song is about that quest and not arriving and this is how he sees faith, ever a journey not an end. While hypnotized, for his voice problems, he says the place he feels safest and strongest is walking along a river with his best friend Jesus. Then later at the Jordan River 30 years and everyone in his family jump in. Sees baptism as submerging into death to find new life. Metaphor constantly used in Scripture to help us understand God. Joshua Tree took the band to a whole new kind of success. Remembers time Johnny and June Cash and their visit with him in 1987. Similar initials to Jesus Christ. Johnny prayed for the meal when they visited and it was very poetic. They had a zoo at their house. Asked him to sing on a song in 1993. June preceded Johnny in death by 4 months. Says the cross is the horizontal reaching out to the community and the vertical rooting our heady dreams into solid ground.

37 - Love is Bigger than Anything in Its Way - It is 2018, his son, an artist is on stage, engaging in theatrics on the stage. He is comfortable in his own skin with a fainting stunt. Then at a rugby match watching 16 year-olds remembering his child coming into the world, realizing one day are children will be looking out for us. In 2000, there was a discovery that his cousin Scott was actually his brother, that his father and auntie Barbara - family secrets -- doesn't everyone have them? On stage in Berlin in 2018, and seeing each band member individually but also who they are as part of the whole. U2 is an unfinished song. Recollects that the best albums are the hardest to complete. It is when you stop fighting that you stop functioning. Recollects on the Apostle Paul, someone who overcame himself, and he finds inspiration. Recites I Corinthians 13. There is no promised land, only a promised journey. Thinking about God. Hopes he is with those who live comfortable lives, but he knows he is with the poorest and most vulnerable.

38 - Moment of Surrender - Wife (Ali) at one of their favorite restaurants, in Nice - La Petite Maison in 2016. He has never liked fireworks. But those weren't fireworks, but a Tunisian driving a lorry into the crowds, taking 86 lives. Surrender is powerful word as we surrender to each other, love, maybe a higher power; it is at the heart of many faiths, "Not my will, but..." This song came from photographs and one was of a man falling to his knees in the street, bottoming out (per AA). In surrender we realize that we are not in charge. And Bono is aging and seeing that the last 3rd of his life looks a lot different from his 1st and the ideals are different. The drive to achieve. He loves the story of Elijah who is told to wait on the voice of God and what comes is a still small voice. He remain a singer, continuing to dream.

39 - Landlady - The only conversation now is with me and my Maker. Lying in bed. Seeing his wife, lying there and his camera light shining on her face, reminding him that this is his life and the reason for his journey. He wants to learn how to be home, to be still, and surrender.

40 - Breathe - This is my heart. I am ready to take my first breath. And...I will sing, sing a new song. How long to sing this song?

I remember going to Natural Sound on Eubank Blvd in Albuquerque, south of Candelaria and buying U2, War. August 10, 1982 is when I gave my life to Christ. But this was 1983. Music had already been a huge part of my life. My first record I remember buying was Shaun Cassidy, from his self-titled album in 1976 when I was 9. Tom Faerber across the street, my best friend's older brother, was into classic rock and turned me onto it as well: AC/DC, Scorpion's, Deep Purple, Krokus, Rush, Rainbow, the Kinks, April Wine, the Cars and my trips to Natural Sound were plentiful. Sometime later in 1982 my mom purchased me a ticket to Resurrection Band and Jerusalem at Kiva Auditorium and later in 1983, I took all of those secular records and trashed them, deciding my listening ears needed only holy sounds. U2's War was being played on the Christian radio station, KLYT. And this record, I still remember was a sound that I had never experienced and Psalm 40 quickly became my favorite bible passage.

I really enjoyed this walk through Bono's life.